Desire / Crossings Hearts

Innocent desire
no harm, no foul,
all in its right time.
That’s the way love goes
It’s not about the physical

It’s about something that transcends all we know so well
all we know too well
and here we are in this virtual space
and i know
the desire was never a sin

it was a symptom of the pull
of being so close
But then
often derailed,

I wrote this long before I even knew what it would feel like
to be loved and pulled in a way that…
or wait, I did know. I knew the juvenile version,
In innocence
a purified, clear love
that had no expectations
no demands.
and here we are
so very close, and yet so far,
in all directions,
cycling closer moment by moment.
I’m impatient. How do you wait
when so, so very close?
i feel your calm,
and humor
in seeing me squirm
for something i am so positive you have known
for so very, very long
and you soothe me, not to worry
by scarred and loose wires
By crossing hearts

Belief In

I will not lose hope,
I believe people are good,
I believe in redemption,
I believe people are innately good,
I believe we are deterred by want,
I believe in each is good,
I believe we often ignore our needs,
I believe in good,
I believe we lose some hope when times get tough,
I believe we doubt our own good,
I believe we lose touch when we lose hope,
I believe we lose sight,
I believe it is not gone,
I believe the capacity remains
I believe there is good,
I believe,
In hope,
I must believe,
Or I would lose
Myself too

Addicted to Love (Shadow Monsters)


You may be addicted
to illegal or prescription drugs,
sugar, coffee, candy, carbs,
fast cars, sex, relationships, cigarettes,
performing acts of charity,
hurting self,
Hurting others,
electronics, work,
play, games,
sleeping, never sleeping, doing nothing, never stopping,
et cetera, et cetera.

But it all comes back
to the same source
—an addiction to the purest force
—Love, and feeling of
that highest good,
And we want it so much
we will sell our souls,
will change who we are,
change our direction to just
—the adrenaline that reminds
we are physically here

But we become addicted to
our best intentioned,
innocent source.
The addiction takes over
and makes us forget
and turns us into
shadow monsters of ourselves,

But makes us see
monsters in
everyone else.