I don’t want to go back, But I am unsure of forward; Frustration meets me In this state of being Stuck; Home is where the heart is, Still, a place is needed, To be, For one to be lifted up By land and Held by space, That which is affirming and accepting, And welcomes you to its setting, I am working on that for me, For us, After adversity jettisoned us From where we had Only meant to be temporarily, Somehow, I had forgotten; Midnight, Deja-vu, Online, I am here and now looking, For a place, the next move.
Lonely is not my end, It is but a chapter In my epic story; Nights alone, Basking in a blue light Soothing and healing internal hurts From love gone wrong Is where I am meant to be, Right now, For now; Tenderly mending from in to out, Alone, to never again be truly lonely; Here, preparing my heart For whatever is next, Building its muscle To jump back in, Wanting, But patient for Love, Biding my precious time, For someone loving, ready and worthy of me, And what I have to offer in return; With one life to live, I will appreciate the embrace of the dark Until when I am ready and willing, To be embraced in the dark.
How We made love, I can’t get out the thought, The feeling out of my core, I am drugged by the memory, Of your body so deep, Our breaths hushed whispers, In each other’s ears, I close my eyes alone, And still cannot sleep, My want of you From afar, Makes for a maddening insomnia, Alas, I have the intimate recollection, Of your fingers on my skin, And sleep becomes irrelevant, For the dream I’m already in
This darkest night, We long for light, But wise eyes, Will see it, The burning of the ancient flames, The distant stars, We gift, like diamonds, meeting spots, for hearts to see, to feel the love, that burns there, still.
When all is dark Give not in to fear The dark has stars That guide the easy, Light that is still, Though far away, Let despair not grip you, When hope seems lost, The dawn will still break, And through the fissure The light shall spill, Seeping in and over the day, Making things clearer, Making things easier to bear.