In her soil I plunge my roots,
In her showers I cleanse my soul,
In her breeze I dry my tears,
From her exhalation I take my breath,
On her pillowy hills I rest my body,
I find solace in her arms’ embrace,
Knowing she unconditionally opens her body to be my home,
She is a nurturing Mother,
Who feeds, and tends, and teaches,
And we the children are at her breast,
As close as we can get,
And yet we can become closer,
The more we recognize
That the mother is also inside
She the Earth Mother,
Of which we are made,
Whom we may find, may feel
In and out
Tag: mindfulness
Idle Mind
Running but still still,
Gears turn, neurons firing,
This is “idle” mind
Benchmarks
Benchmarks of my progress
Hooray for me!
Seeming fine to everybody,
And still I worry,
What is sanity when it can slip
So easily?
I’m good, I’m sure,
But how can I be sure?
What if the figurative demons return?
–The ones I was positive
Were exorcized?
Fear of the return is infrequent
But vigilant I remain
Someone needs to be
Watching for the return of
A me I do not want to be
So I go through the motions
The exercise
To keep unisolated my heart and mind
On Rebirth
I can see my healing now,
In my words…
Before, I had grasped widely
for hold of sanity,
My mind spun,
Outlining all the abstracts
Seeing the metaphysics of everything
Until, like the universe
I exploded
In a big bang of psychosis
Then slowly
Though Not understanding the why
I began to pick up the pieces of self
Little by little
I write my way out
And back
And reflect on
What happened?
What had I become?
What was I becoming?
Was I flowering or
Decomposing
When I exploded?
Or both?
Or was this just
Another
One of many
Of my rebirths?
Stillness
9.28.18
And then
There is stillness
And I am not sure
exactly
What
To do
With myself.
Pottery
August 2, 2017
I have come into my own
Dredged through
The swamp
Of the lowest
of my lows
And pulled myself up
To stand erect
Looked back in reflection
And from the muck
Sculpted a self
I can admire
I am the potter and clay,
I am the pot
-that which cannot exist
Without
the gaping hole
at center
