This spirit has always craved mystery
Of trying for the seemingly impossible;
And yet it fears failure
At the end of a long game;
It fears erasure,
Fears unsaved progress,
Lost
But that was then,
This is now
Game Genie,
Changed it all,
Shifted the odds,
Way back when,
But it was never really the game
or the game system
That was at stake;
It was the mind,
The controller of the hands
holding the game control,
It was the mind shuffling between
Levels of life,
Competition in game,
At school,
At home,
From which friends were those
Fellow players
Sifted out and held close,
For keeps.
Along the way
The cartridges get dusty,
The disks scratch,
The software glitches,
We become tired,
We get distracted
We stop playing, because
Life…
Our fingers need only work the buttons once more,
To remember the sequences,
To do it just
Right
To beat that Boss,
To escape that trap,
To remember it was never
About winning it all
On the first try,
Unless you had “backup”,
I, you, we all
Were never meant to game alone,
But we got older
And we saved our games
And some tucked them away,
Forgetting
Each other
We got older
Our relationships got complicated
And became new games,
Complete with bosses
And real became fake, and fake real
Never mind the console,
Or the title
truthfully,
We are all trying to beat it,
This epic game.
We get minor victories,
And the harsh truth being
We will all eventually get
Game Over
In radically accepting
My eventual,
final KO,
eventually,
I strive to make my own sequences;
Reset to replay my favorite games;
Reconnect with my backup;
And break the rules
That bound me to a fear of failure
If I am going to one day end
I can not
live the game
Afraid to even play.
Tag: innocence
Desire / Crossings Hearts
Innocent desire
no harm, no foul,
all in its right time.
That’s the way love goes
It’s not about the physical
alone
It’s about something that transcends all we know so well
all we know too well
and here we are in this virtual space
and i know
the desire was never a sin
it was a symptom of the pull
of being so close
But then
often derailed,
I wrote this long before I even knew what it would feel like
to be loved and pulled in a way that…
or wait, I did know. I knew the juvenile version,
In innocence
a purified, clear love
that had no expectations
no demands.
and here we are
so very close, and yet so far,
in all directions,
cycling closer moment by moment.
I’m impatient. How do you wait
when so, so very close?
i feel your calm,
and humor
in seeing me squirm
for something i am so positive you have known
for so very, very long
and you soothe me, not to worry
malfunctioned
by scarred and loose wires
or
Overwhelmed
By crossing hearts
The Protector
I will protect you,
I would lay down my own life
For yours to be good
I will protect you,
A human shield to keep
You safe from all harm
I will protect you,
I am guardian
Of your innocence
I will protect you,
You are the reason
I breathe here today
Questions
Get back to the core,
Back to the root,
Before you filled
your head with
Answers
Ask again
What?
Why?
What is it all?
What is it all for?
Reclaim your ignorance,
Your innocence,
Or you remain lost.
Playground III
August 28, 2017
With age
Innocence wanes
–youth corrupted by influence,
And the many
Are pushed by the few
Without intervention
so spoil the lot
Playground II
August 16, 2017
Our children play,
A spectral epidermal display
They have no reason to hate,
Play and fun is the objective,
They challenge and boost each other up
They care not of
Color of skin,
country of origin,
Language,
Faith,
Gender
Sexual Orientation
But they will soon learn,
Oh, they will be informed
That this play must have order,
Rules,
Time will teach them
To see difference,
And make labels,
With which to hate one another.
If only one could bottle
These moments
To relieve when older,
Before time and bias
taint our innocence