August 11, 2017
My bandage has ripped off
And exposed the wound
I never let heal,
A wound that should
have long ago closed,
Exposed now to air
The hurt is fresh,
And I can see that it is there
I feel the sting,
And unwilling to repeat the past
I stare at it, aware,
And beckon it to close
Tag: heartbreak
One More
November 2016
For years I slowly shut myself down
I learned to cope
the only way I knew how,
A true scorpion child
my protection from pain
is to sting,
At the cause
At the pain
Until numb,
Paralysis sets in
Seeming cool, callused,
From only my eyes hint at within.
Irreplaceable.
But somehow I replaced.
And convinced myself,
I hurt myself to set you free,
Wherever, whatever,
You needed,
I wanted that for you.
How gifted writers,
Can speak volumes
with silence,
and mute with small talk.
The space between,
afraid, so afraid,
of feelings that remained.
Wondering what just one more
kiss,
One more
talk,
One more
game,
One more
cup,
one more
ride,
one more…
Exposé
July 20, 2017
I make myself bare,
Expose my soul,
Hoping he will see,
Will care,
Perhaps,
As he once did
I teeter,
Foolheartily,
Walking on a line
Of sanity
I weave my heartstrings
And hang my tapestry,
Aware,
indifferent
that the world can see.
Dowsing
July 1, 2017
I search
In daylight
In the night
In crowds of faces
In the rain
In snow
In the country
In the city
Here
And there
In story
In song
And in legend…
For in my dreams
you no longer come,
As I’ve lost
too much of myself
meeting you there
And memory has fossilized,
been reimagined
in different shapes and color
And yet the same ache returns
Knowing what I’ve known
And may never experience again
But having known it
I still feel the warmth that comes
from having felt love
That lingering feeling
is what makes it
nearly impossible
to let go
entirely
And so without intention
My heart seeks
And unexpectedly
reminds endlessly,
of you
She of Letters 