After the Fall

July 4, 2023July 4, 2023 ~ Vanessa ~ Leave a comment

Turned around in reflection,
What I found
I couldn’t accept,
Couldn’t escape,
Digging deeper, I aimed
to connect the pieces,
To right the wrongs
Atone for my transgressions
From when I didn’t know
Me,
And of my falling;
Fallen,
I have to stop
Now,
And look up
To see the light that guided me
back here to my ground-zero;
New moves,
About-face
to pull up
Stand strong,
Be proud
Of all I’ve come through
and back again,
Ready now
To live,
To write next pages
With fresh ink
Vision cleared,
Purpose,
And a sharpened point to this,
My life

If, But: In the Way

February 15, 2023February 15, 2023 ~ Vanessa ~ Leave a comment

If
he were not already gone
Would I have even thought
To talk to you?
Would these feelings have been hard to navigate?

The want,
The enjoyment
Of something normal

I would have had guilt about it

If
he were still
In the way

But,

he is Not

Reparations

September 21, 2019 ~ Vanessa ~ Leave a comment

We don’t belong here,
Most of us,
All of us,
We are squatters,
Claimants to possessions,
To lives, to land,
To stories that are not ours,
That are not meant to be owned,
And still we are a legacy,
Of conquerors,
Thefting still,
Without acknowledgement,
Often without knowledge,
Of the very sins we are committing,
This is our history,
Our story,
The ending is never written,
It is living by our means
And I wish to live love
And reparations into this Act.

Worry Not

September 7, 2018September 8, 2018 ~ Vanessa ~ 1 Comment

Things are as
And where they are supposed
To be,
Worry not,

Everything is going
To be ok,
Rest

All to Myself

September 7, 2018September 7, 2018 ~ Vanessa ~ Leave a comment

I want you close
But it’s selfish to keep you
All to myself
I am guilty
Of loving you so much,
Fearing I will lose you,
Or that I’m being tricked
Into the antithesis
Of everything you are
Please forgive me
For my doubt, fear
A need to verify that
What I am worshipping
Does not wish to see ill
To you
And all the wonderous things
You’ve made