Loving Despite

Reading into things
Place hopes where they may not go,
Hoping despite doubt,
Loving him still despite fear,
Daring still to reach words out

En Garde

Tension mounted,
Coils in belly,
Nerve ends alive,
On fire,
I am on guard,
And vigilant
Of the unknown

A threat is present,
I feel in my bones,
And I must remain
Present,
Prepared,
Awake,
Aware,
Well,
And able
To protect my keep

Don’t be afraid
To ask outright
for what you need,

It is not a burden,
But to hold it in,
And go without,
Because you feared
Judgement,
When you were most in need.

All you can do is ask,
There is no shame
In asking
For
Help.

< 9/16/2018

I fear ,
I fear
I am cycling

Back into the chaos
That ensnared
Me before,
This time the monsters aren't near,
Or clear,
But in whispers,
I start to hear

Strange mouths
Utter words that seem familiar,
And I read every word
To be about and for me,
I am curious,
And want to know

Alice, do I go,
Sucked down the vacuum
Down, down
Below

We avoid the light
For fear
It is the end.

“Fuck off,
We’re full!”
Reads the bumper sticker,
The Stars and Bars there too

Built Ford tough,
Here in
Miles,
And miles of

wide

open

space,

Middle of nowhere,

USA.

8/2/2018