Rx: Breathe

2.12.2023

Anxiety is fear
Like a heartbeat
Like a pulse
A drip,
Fed through the system,
Headed for
And moved unwittingly
By that very heart
To the heart

Breathe in,
Feel;
Feel wind,
Air,
Oxygen
Rush, flood in
Into the system.
A reboot,
An infusion
An intervention,
A pherisis of essence

Breathe out;
For fear, anxiety
Built up is toxin
Is builder of other toxins
In the effort to protect from the hurt

Breathe in;
Smell, taste, feel, know
even see this air,
H20 medicine
That can soothe a frenetic heart
Back into rhythm

Breathe out
So that heart,
And mind too,
May remember their own cycle;
Cycle
Letting tensions go
And of
“Breathing”:
Tensing and relaxing,
Taking and releasing;
Letting flow
In and out

Gaslit

Hot with anger
The memories hit
And I’m taken back
Back
Back to when I was
Grasping for strands of autonomy,
Staking my claim,
Vouching for
My
Self,
And
Gaping
For the words that will hold
That will make my reality
Real
To
Someone
Else,
And I am voiceless,
Gasping,
Begging,
Please,
To see,
What I know,
To feel what I feel,
Gaslit,
And now I know it,
And the feeling is of airlessness,
Oxygen depleted,
Would this be more real if I were bleeding?
I am ill,
See it plain,
Believe,
I know my body,
This sick,
It’s not just in,
A figment of,
A skewed creation
Of my brain

Burning Breath

I can’t breathe,
It’s allergy season,
A yearly occurrence
Yet still a fear arises,
With burning breath caught mid chest,
My mind fears another pathogen near,
That could further take my breath,
My life
Away