Writing Her Way

They are in timeless songs
And she wonders
how many
Share
this same ballad
To love so fiercely
Defying time
And space

And others will lay false trails
To pick up
Where time
And fragility of the mind
Cut short
And she holds out
As she tries once more
To catch even a glimpse,
She writes her way
To him

7/7/2017

Desire

Desire leads to suffering
But maybe some desire
Leads to motivation
Toward good
When my motivation is for you
Not to you
I find a burn in my belly
To flourish as a sentient being
Artistically, cognitively,
To be the best I can be.

8/9/2017

In the Trees

I have family
In Africa,
In Cameroon.

Family,
Whom I will likely
Never meet,
With histories I may never learn.
Most likely to be erased
by active deletion and plunder,

replaced with rubble and shells, and unrecognizable human lives,

No,
My family,
They do not live in trees.

Post-colonial,
Christianized,
Westernized –“Civilized”,
And they simultaneously have lost, honor and shun their pre-colonial heritage,

And they speak English;
And Meta,
and Cameroonian pidgeon (some do),
And many other native tongues,
Mais, un grand nombres d’entre eux ne comprennent le francais (“But a large number do not understand French”),
In a country
C’est effaser l’angophone (“That is erasing engish speaking/ the english speaker”) .

And they are hiding,
In the jungle,
For their lives

Colonialism,
In different pigments,
Different uniforms,
Different flags,
But never dead,
Again rears its head,

Fled from their homes,
Their villages,
Their farms,
their fields,
Their land
Living now
as refugees,
Hiding behind,
between,

And in
the trees.

But not Ne Julie,
My aunt,
Whom I will never meet,
She says
She will stay
She is diabetic,
She is too old,
Too fragile,

To run,
To keep up,
to survive,

among the trees.

7/30/2018

Mother’s Tears

She cries,
For her children still have not learned,
If you poison the womb,
The mother is left ill,
She cries,
And tries to stop,
But she cannot,
This body is not her own now,
And she is clouded,
And so she cries,
And cannot stop,
And the people beg “please”,
At the storms,
That are raging,
And she cries,
Because she cannot stop,
Because they did as they pleased,
And burnt her body,
And poisoned her veins,
Choked her,
And drowned her in her own tears,
And the people are now under,
In awe and in fear,
Of her thunder,
They argue over the reasons,
For unexpected change in season,
And still she cries,
And quakes,
And it will only get worse,
For her defilers,
Still refuse to admit
Any mistake,
And so her tears fall on.

-September 3, 2017